| | they say it was better to have loved then lost, then to have never loved at all. well i don't think so. even through all of the fun times i wouldn't have done anything if i had known it would hurt this bad. everything that we did. we had in common. everything around me we've been around. my house and most of lodi. everything i thought was fun you did too. and vice versa. and going out with my best friend i guess wasn't a very smart idea, because now things will be awkward because of what we've been through. and for me at least i think there will always be feelings between us. and idk how long i can take that for. because its not like i can stop talking to you because without you my life was really dull. and when i met and started hanging out with you i had something to do. and after that i don't think i can go back to all of that. you were everything i wanted in a girl. i know this isn't the best thing to say but you were the person i could tell anything to. and well i can't anymore because its you who its about. you're the most fun person i know, even though i tell you your jokes are corny i think they're funny because you can always make me smile. all the times you said that you think there was something wrong with you there wasn't, all of your little flaws were the things that i liked best about you. and well we can't be together anymore because it takes two to make a relationship work. and well there aren't two anymore. and for a long time there will be a place for you in my heart. through all the heart ache and stuff i still care about you. i know you care about me too but not the way i care for you. and if you read this yea i still blame my self for everything. because i put my self in those positions for more heart ache. and i just hope that this pain will go away and that if possible we can be friends again. its not like i hate you like most people hate their ex's. i don't i still want you in my life even if we're not together. it'll be painful though but i can only try to stomach it all. and well i guess i should really try to stop caring but i can't and thats what really sucks about me. i care too much and sometimes i wish i didn't. and sorry for what ever i did that idk just sorry.
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| | Posted 4/19/2009 1:55 PM - 2 Views - 2 eProps - 2 comments
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